tattOo Of memOrises..

its a new thing

2009-11-08T01:49:00.002+08:00

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thank you:)

its a long long time..

2009-10-27T15:27:00.003+08:00

our 1 year anniversary!!!

our CE visit to Loyang tua pek gong
hahahahahah.

fun fun fun!!!!!

2009-10-15T14:00:00.004+08:00

day out on tues:)

holiday, please.

2009-10-06T13:46:00.002+08:00

school started.
super boring, have to wake up early in the morning to go school.
had distribution and transportation today, glad its still manageable
didn't attend the IEP and ii was being deducted 8DA points. omg
have to go for talks now

new classmates was nice but wasn't really close. maybe not really ready to bond yet.
hais. everyone seems to have submitted their PP, left me not done yet.
tmr no school have to rush to finish it.

school, school, school
busy,busy,busy.

when everything went out of hand.

2009-10-01T23:33:00.003+08:00

school reopening soon.
bored bored bored.
working in TCC trying to earn $$
things really hasn't been going well these few days, PP not done, attachment did not complete and lots of stuff.
hais.
even going work also kena fuck, thinking im nice o bully.
knn make me pek cek like F
arrgh
money is hard to eran
damn!

when everything changes, including u

2009-08-29T03:13:00.004+08:00

school holiday finally arrived. yeah!
and now im at airport.
doing what?slacking.hahaha, but its kinda fun though:)
had been planning with what im gonna do for the weeks.
yet IEP hit me and nothing i can do.
starting work on 31st aug.omg.
830-6pm daily, hais
yet chalets pops up at this time.
4-6sep baby's chalet
14-16sep cliques chalet.
and luckily my bdae falls on the 30th sep which my IEP had just ended.
woohoo, thanks god!hahaha.

finally i came to realise, everything changes and nothing stays the same.
no matter how hard someone swears and promise nothing will change, till the end of the day, its all empty talks.
disappointed.

my grades:)

2009-08-14T23:56:00.005+08:00

Last published Daily Grade and UT Grade for each modules
E217-1-E44E-B : Problem 14 - A UT 2 - B
E210-4-E44E-B : Problem 14 - A UT 2 - A
E214-2-E44E-B : Problem 14 - A UT 2 - C
E213-3-E44E-B : Problem 14 - A UT 2 - D+

hahaha, the best final shot!

its my classmates!!

2009-08-07T14:40:00.003+08:00

yesterday took these with my classmates with my new hairstyle. haha.

semester1 ending soon already and my class finally organised our first outing. bbq in school.LOL

and W25F chalet coming soon!anticipating, hahaha.

ii want go play bowling, singing and shopping!!!!

oh ya, and im going to enjoy my 1 month break going for attachment. BORING!!

it spells S-H-I-T

2009-08-06T23:56:00.001+08:00

blogger seems down again!!! no colour to choose, everything gone!!arrgh.
will update again when its normal.

im sorry..

2009-07-21T14:16:00.002+08:00

took this with baby yesterday. looked sweet? maybe.

the incident that changed everything
ii really don't mean to, soo sorry.
some things maybe its best left unsaid
but if you ask, ii will explain.
but we both chose to stay this way.
thousands of sorry.

motivation badly needed!!

2009-07-08T04:07:00.010+08:00

UT grades out for inventory management and Operations planning.
got a C and B+ for each. kinda disappointed for my inventory.
ii studied pretty hard for it, yet didn't do well.
UT 2 is coming up soon, yet problems are getting more and more tough to handle, tried to study, but couldn't concentrate.
ii need energy boost.

And tomorrow having a date with mommy again. we planned to go Geylang for durians.
im loving it!!
one thing good about going out with your parents is you don't have to spend your own money.
save save save!!
hahahahaha.

-beautiful moments only appear in moments, thus cameras are invented to capture them down to make them turn into beautiful memories then can be seen. -
hahaha

its celebration time!!:)

2009-07-05T21:55:00.009+08:00

saturday went to celebrate my dear sis's bdae.
hahha. went beds pub to drink and mostly all was drunk.
hahaha. baby couldn't really hold alcohol so he soon fell asleep.
games were played, got punished and drank lots of cups.
hahaha. and even some could really hold ones, like si kai was like semi drunk already.
and when we were going off around 3am, there was this guy who swing the door with all his strength and know wad, he break the whole glass door.
it shocked the whole lot of us, and the door which i overheard from the boss costs him 10K
and he have to sleep there as that was his only door to lock.
hahaha.
wad a strong guy and a weird day.

managed to upload one pathetic picture using the manually way, think blogger is facing problems uploading pictures now:(

the promises

2009-06-25T21:50:00.012+08:00

went to celebrate our 8th monthsaries at downtown, although both of us was kinda broke but ya, we still managed to squeeze out some money to go eat:)

soo fast time pass, although some things happened in-between, but you promised it will never happen again and ii really hope you will remember it.
so now, $$ seems to keep flowing out..
xiujing's bdae, our 9th monthsaries and more bdae's coming which makes me soo scared to remember.hahaha.

the photos:)

proud=)

2009-06-25T09:14:00.001+08:00

Last published Daily Grade and UT Grade for each modules

E217-1-E44E-B : Problem 7 - A

E210-4-E44E-B : Problem 7 - A

E214-2-E44E-B : Problem 7 - A

E213-3-E44E-B : Problem 7 - A

hahaha, motivates me:)

baby's bdae

2009-06-01T00:40:00.005+08:00

went to celebrate hong kai, si kai and baby's birthday.

though very little photos were taken, but it was fun=]
happy birthday to u guys!!:)

ARRGH

2009-05-18T14:28:00.003+08:00

why some people just wants to do for the sake of wanting to show off?
ii really don't understand.
u are just doing for the sake of showing that u know
yet behind scene u simply just don't care?
ii seriously don't think ii can take any further
maybe ii should be glad that changes will be done and ii will soon be able to break free from it
hoping that ii will not get the same thing ever again..

im proud!

2009-05-15T21:09:00.000+08:00

E217-1-E44E-B : Problem 3 - B
E210-4-E44E-B : Problem 3 - A
E214-2-E44E-B : Problem 3 - A
E213-3-E44E-B : Problem 3 - A

wahaha.tads e way man!!

its just soo..

2009-05-07T23:55:00.000+08:00

hoping to turn back time and put everything back in place.

fastforwarding life

2009-04-28T23:42:00.002+08:00

school started, everything seems to be passing through really fast.
didn't have much time to meet up with friend, and not even time to have lunch.
everything seems fine but its rather competitive and stress.
things hasn't been going smoothly, charger spoil, Leo sucks.
however, life has to go on. everything's new, have to adapt to it.

today finally have the time to wind down and relax awhile.
went to TM to pass baby's friend her charger and also to take our ring.
tomorrow its Wednesday again.
time to rest.

the past,hauting me

2009-04-13T02:08:00.003+08:00

school is going to reopen in 1 week time.
thinking back really felt that 3months pass pretty fast.
didn't get a chance to work so take it as a long holiday for me to have ample rest.

on sat,
was supposed to meet those cliques for pool, yet ii was too tired to even drag myself out of the bed, so as usual ii was late again. thus had to meet them at dhoby ghaut then head down to orchard.
actually planned to catch a movie but ii wasn't in the mood and because ii was broke too.
so we went shopping.there are really a lot of moving out sales so everything was cheap.
and ii saw 2 pairs of shoes from charles and keith, ii swear to buy it,
so now im going to ask it from my mom first because it adds up to 100bucks,will return her when school starts:)

these few weeks kept having the same old similar dream
the past seems coming back, haunting me.
did ii really made the right choice? if ii did then why am ii feeling so uneasy now?
the feeling, maybe ii really did regret.
if at that point of time ii chose to handle it in a different way will it be different now?
seriously, im not quit sure myself.
my mind seems to be in a whirlpool.
should ii amend back on what ii thought ii was supposed to do or
should ii just leave all these behind and move on?
the guilt, or was it really guilt?
ii don't know
but the feeling inside me..
oh, it sucks
what can ii do, in order to break free and stop dreaming about it?

fakers

2009-04-05T21:45:00.003+08:00

yesterday went back malaysia to celebrate kor's bdae.
went to eat Japanese food, but wasn't really nice.
went for shopping and saw the jeans baby liked from topman, mom bought it as an early bdae present for baby.
and ya school is going to reopen in 2weeks time.
arrgh, got to wake up early again.

- happen to see something today that triggers my thought. u and her can be really good friends together. she backstabs this particular person with you, saying how irritating she is how able to act she is,yet behind your back they can still go out together.
huh.
shouldn't we award these people for the best actress award?-

day out!!

2009-04-01T21:50:00.002+08:00

these few days busy going out soo didn't have the time to update.
went with baby to changi beach on sat to celebrate our anniversary.
ytd and today went to shopping.
spent 100plus.
soo waste $$
hais
and ya we watched "confession of a shopaholic"
its nice.

going to bathe now le, will update again.

shag

2009-03-27T01:28:00.002+08:00

school is gonna reopen in less than a month.
posted to E44E.
E4, soo far.
but hais, really don feel like going back to school
months pass really fast like days.
dread of going back, have to know things and people over again.

but anyway, tomorrow going to sentosa with baby.
was suppose to go on wed,but there was hiccup soo was postponed.
kinda lazy now, will update again after the trip:)

baby with me to msia

2009-03-15T23:24:00.003+08:00

hmmm finally back to singapore
went back msia with baby on the friday to rebond my hair.
it was really enjoying to have him with me.
this is the first time ii brought him back to see my brother/sister
soo at first he was kinda scared.
haha.
but ya after much interaction he was fine with them already and don mind going back with me again=)
hmm soo im looking forward to it le.

-sometimes human being just like new things
and maybe even friends.
u and her can be the best friend for soo long yet when she have the company of another
she can just totally forgot about the friend that once shared all the problems with
her secrets and even the fun.
soo in this world is there really something called as "irreplaceable"?
for someone ii don think soo. -

the first and last.

2009-03-09T02:09:00.002+08:00

the chalet that ii had been anticipating since semester 2 term break had ended.
the sudden thought ii had in my mind was
"is there any possibility that we can be like how we had fun in the chalet as W25F again?"
although there were some displeasure in-between yet at the end of the day ii really do cherish the time and fun that we had as a class.
maybe this would be the last time we had an outing as W25F
as all of us will be busy when year 2 starts.
but yet this is the "wow wow" class that ii had and enjoyed and will never forget.
the first class that ii was in when ii first entered RP, the best classmates that ii had.
the memories that are tattoo in me and will never be erased.
thinking back the time we had as a class
going for breaks together,
the jokes that we cracked and even the arguments that we had
really kinda missing it.

time pass really fast.
looking back at this day a year ago when ii was preparing to first enter RP
and now getting myself ready for year 2.

things around us are ever changing
when u look back and realize how fast things/people had changed
it always leave u with a sign on the regrets that u had
things that u missed and the wrongdoings u had done.

and its always the word "cherish"
cherish everything/everyone around u
change for the person whom u really care for if u don wanna lose him/her.
"不要学会了可惜,才懂得如何去珍惜"

W25F chalet coming

2009-02-27T23:00:00.003+08:00

this few days keep slacking doing nothing
hais..
no job money going to spend finish le:(
actually wanted to go cut hair with baby but he overslept till 6plus soo nv:(
yesterday went out with mommy and baby to chinatown to take brochures for korea
mommy say we going korea end of this month and we will be able to see cherry blossom
haha and the lady show us photos on the place we going
on of it is the teddy bear museum
the most ex one wearing the LV shirt cost $32000
wow..
soo ya
anticipating to go now lo
just now gabriel called to say he manage to find a job for me at Bugis
hope really can bah.

and tmr actually going to play pool
but in the end postpone cause some of them not free
soo tmr going shopping with baby.
and W25F chalet will be on next fri to sun
excited=p
hahaa
soo long nv see them le
see u guys soon!!:)

2009-02-19T00:56:00.004+08:00

me to you(my baby girl^^)

1. Who are you?
ur boyfriend

2. Are we friends?
No no no no... And i am really sure about that^^

3. When and how did we meet?
Off to RP, In the 39 bus bus

4. Do you have a crush on me?
More than that^^

5. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
My baby girl girl... Look cute and nice on you^^

6. Describe me in one word.
Cute^^

7. What was your first impression?
Let me see... Decent and soft^^

8. Do you still think that way about me now?
Erm.. YUP^^ still as DECENT AND SOFT.. Right my baby girl^^

9. What reminds you of me?
Ur ever pretty smile.. Bus 39 of course.. and YUP 25 too^^

10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
Anything i can^^

11. How well do you know me?
75%-80%

12. When's the last time you saw me?
3hours ago

13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
Hmm... Yup..

14. Are you going to post this in your notes and see what I say about you?
Of course^^

15. What is my best attribute?
Kind, Nice and polite i think... Hehe..

me to you=)

2009-02-19T00:32:00.005+08:00

me to you(my baby boy=)

1. Who are you?
ur girlfriend=)
2. Are we friends?
obviously not!
3. When and how did we meet?
on our way to school,in bus39
4. Do you have a crush on me?
ii think soo=)
5. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
my baby boy, it sounds cute.
6. Describe me in one word.
sweet=p
7. What was your first impression?
hmmm.handsome but arrogant??
8. Do you still think that way about me now?
handsome ya, arrogant at times
9. What reminds you of me?
bus 39, 25th of every month
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
anything within my means
11. How well do you know me?
80%?
12. When's the last time you saw me?
3hours ago
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
yes=(
14. Are you going to post this in your notes and see what I say about you?
certainly!
15. What is my best attribute?
sweet, loving and filial=)

hot hot hot!!!

2009-02-18T23:58:00.000+08:00

sorry for not updating recently
my dear xj thought ii disappeared
haha
maybe its because this few days im kinda addicted to reading
since there is nth to do
and no $$ to go out
hence ii rather stay at home and read

and the weather nowadays is really hot
it just spoil the mood of even wanting to just leave the house

hmmm and my mommy change of plan
we are not going hong kong for shopping already=(
but in a sense its good cause mommy say want to go Korea for winter ski
it spring when we go at the end of march
thus we will be able to see cherry blossom=)

and its been a long time since ii last play pool
ii want go play lo
but im lazy to organize=p

tired

2009-02-13T00:58:00.003+08:00

all the excuses u gave
u said ii was not understanding enough
then who is going to be understanding towards me
im just tired la
it just seem to me that we wont last too long
everything has its end
maybe we should just let go
will it be better for the both of us?

patience for me was not like this before
comparing me and her
im not her!
if she is that good then y come after me?
nothing can salvage the situation we are in now
unless u can do wad u promised me
but ii doubt

we seem to be the happiest couple
but behind close doors..
ii think its either u make e choice
or ii will do it

hais..sick=(

2009-02-05T00:09:00.002+08:00

fallen sick these few days after coming back from malaysia
hais
started off from flu then to fever now to nose bleed
hmmm
must have been all the "ba gua" ii ate
too heaty=(
soo now must drink alot of water and replenish my sleep

and currently im looking for a job
anyone know of any??
kinda short of $$ nowadays
other than going out and waste $$ eat and sleep
my life seems BLACK
hais
bored bOred BORED
dying of boredom
ARRGH!!

and soo today ii went out with dear xiujing to town to collect the jacket we bought
yet in the end the person forgot to bring
soo today we went on a date to watch "the wedding game"
hmmm
its a LOL and lame show
if ur ticket worth only 6bucks like ours then no harm watching
if its like 10bucks
then wad ii can say is..
better don try.
after tad baby came to Bugis and meet me
as ii told him ii don wanna go back myself
and ii wan go walk walk
but as usual he was late again=(
anyways ya,
we really walk
we walked thoroughly the whole Bugis w/o missing out any area
hahaa
soo in the end ii bought 1 dress and he bought a shirt(which is pink in color)
hahaa
but it looks good on him=)
and soo after rounds and rounds we finished walking at near 9
as ii was not feeling well
soo have to go home rest early
we headed home=)

and my dear XJ,
thanks lots for helping me to collect my jacket ltr
as its too far for me to go down Orchard again=p

CNY holiday

2009-01-29T21:59:00.006+08:00

finally back from malaysia
its soo tiring=(
however it was fun as this is the first time ii smuggled in casino and gambled
ii won 200over bucks
yet because of my reluctance to go
ii lost all the money back=(
over all was fun
but the sad thing was ii lost the "hangbao" that my mommy and relatives gave me
mommy said it was either stolen or ii left in the hotel =(
sadded
my 270bucks gone=(
hais...

these are the photos taken from Genting and Melaka

GENTING

MELAKA

"EYE OF MALAYSIA"

2009-01-29T00:40:00.008+08:00

For yOu...
yOu are a tree that i am willing tO give up my whOle fOrest for....

Baby Girl...
This is the secOnd post that i have pOst for you...
Yup yup.. nOw yOu are still in Malaysia...
And yup, i miss miss you a lOt lOt^^
i will be waiting fOr yOu tO cOme back k... Hehe...
muack muack...

it has been a while since yOu last spent time with yOur family...
so this is a gOOd time tO dO it^^
i hOpe that yOu are enjOying yOur time there...
and hOpe that yOu are missing me tOO... Hehe...

yup yup... yOu will be running arOund Malaysia...
must take gOOd care Of yOurself k...
must mum mum a lOt lOt...
i will still want yOu nO matter hOw cute yOu will becOme k^^
i will still sayang yOu my little Baby...

I miss miss yoU Baby...
and i will be waiting fOr yOu tO cOme back...
even thrOugh i will still have tO wait a few mOre days...
and after yOu cOme back....
we will have a lOt of things that we are gOing tO dO...
like....
Hehe... Only yOu and i knOw...
sO yOu have tO take gOOd care Of yOurself k...
muack muack muack...
see yOu sOOn^^

From yOur One and Only...
BABY BOY!!!!

2009-01-24T02:31:00.002+08:00

For you...
if yOur lOvE fOr me is likE a stalk of rOsE, thEn i must bE laying in a gardEn Of rOsE...

Like I promise you my BABY GIRL...
I have post this up for you and only you..
Even through sometimes i may take a bit longer to do it,
But i will always and always try my best to do it...

Yup like we always say, time have passed so fast...
Still remember the time when i first known you...
I was like wow wow and wow...
and very soon, it is going to be our 3rd month together...
YEA YEA^^(Our 3rd month is also during the Chinese New Year)
and this 3 months with you have been very very enjoyable...
the things we do, the fun we have, the laughter that we enjoyed...
and i just cannot get enough of you...
I know that there will surely be more and better and also funner times that we will have...
Even through, sometimes we may not agree on something...
but i know we will try our best to solve it...
and we always have to okie^^

And yup... My baby girl... You will be going back to Malaysia...
And without a doubt, i will surely miss you...
And i hope you miss me too^^...
I will always have and hold you in my heart..

From your one and only...
BABY BOY!!!

Swimming!!!

2009-01-18T00:12:00.007+08:00

school is coming to an end already
this semester ending in 1 weeks time
even though ii kept complaining how lazy or reluctant to go school
hoping school to end faster
yet now when its only left with one more week
ii begin to feel something
the feeling of not wanting it to end soo quickly
hmmm
*misses*

went to cut my hair ytd at TM
but wasn't the end product ii wanted
but nvm
it still looks okk
soo ya..

anyways ii received revathy's invitation to her sister's wedding
hahaa.
e envelop looks soo damn cute
and its soo nice of her
cause she was going to invite all W25F to the wedding
hahaa.

tmr im going to swimming with baby in the morning
even though how reluctant he was
in the end he still go with me
soo sweet of him
thanks baby!!
*muacks*
hahahaa
after swimming he's going to accompany me to suntec to buy my shoes.
soo tmr will be a long and tiring day
soo im gonna rest now le=)

baby celestine

2009-01-10T22:09:00.004+08:00

its been quite some time since ii last blog
ytd went back to malaysia and visited my niece
and took some cute photos of her=)

and today went down for shopping
bought new year clothing but only manage to buy 2 tops
soo my mom gave me $$ to go buy myself
hahaa
hmmm anyways,
really tired now already
soo im going to slp now
bye.

freaking pissed!!!

2009-01-04T21:33:00.002+08:00

thinking tmr got to go back school
soo sians
arrgh...
and know wad??
today everything just make me freaking pissed!!!
from knowing that my mom did not bring back my camera
make me soo freaking pissed
always take my thing without my permission
wth!!
then when im angry people come pissed me off further
arrgh
irritating
next is ii want to buy my damn contact lens
then all the shop close already
its only 8 la
wth

ARRRGH!!!!!
ii hate sunday
ii hate U
ii hate...!!!

stupid computer!!!!

2009-01-03T01:08:00.002+08:00

ARRGH!!!
know wad?
my comp down on virus again
ii also donno why la
friends keep saying ii sent them links when im offline
hais
ii also donno why
ii never go surf porn lo
y will siah?
ii think must be tad andre
cause ii clicked on the offline link he sent me
arrgh!!!
dumb siah me

think school reopen have to go reformat le la
but dear say can do system recovery
which recovers ur lappy but don lose any data
hope it works
ii don wan to reformat again la
waste my time
have to lose all my things again!!!
irritating
hais..
why like this????
ARRGH!!!!

happy new year!!!!

2008-12-31T01:49:00.002+08:00

its the 31st of dec already
tmr will be a brand new year of 09 already
people always say must settle debts or to do the things u want to do
if not its will be a omen showing that the debts/things that u have not settle
will not be able to for the next year
soo guys remember settle ur debts or say/do the things u want to do
if not u will not be able to do soo

later will be going to celebrate new year with baby and his family members
going to sakura for lunch then play bowling and maybe for movie
hahaa
ii want to go watch fire works lo
but baby say there will be damn crowded
and ii will definitely die of suffocation one lo
hmmm
soo in the end
maybe not going=(

anyways,
wish u guys
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

thoughts..

2008-12-29T22:36:00.002+08:00

soo fast its the 29dec already
time pass really fast
thinking back a year has pass
some things since the start of the year ii had already wanted to do
yet till now its still not done
just some sudden thoughts flowing through the mind again
things and people stay and go
some things u have tried hard to change
some people u have try ur best to retain
but all and all
u have failed to do soo
wads left now..
are all memories

thinking back since the first day ii stepped into RP
all seems soo alien to me
its soo different from secondary school
soon to learn new things new friends
things happening in-between
quarrels between classmates
tense situations
seeing couple get together and separated
feelings..
then had to bear to say goodbye to them and move on to another new class
facing new classmates again
get to know new good friends
things happened..
but the bonding that we used to have with sem 1 classmates are no longer there anymore
maybe all are afraid that this day will happen
change class again

but no matter wad
sem 1 or sem 2 classmates
all of u have been great friends to me
and ii treasured
even though things/incidents have happen before
all the best for u guys=)

happy new year guys!!!

baby boy's horoscope

2008-12-28T02:25:00.000+08:00

GEMINI MAN(my boyfriend's)

A man in this Zodiac has a thin long and proportional face. He has a high
forehead and very cleaver.
He looks like he can not stand or sit still, a
very fast person. His nose is just right in size, thin lips, talk fast and
very talkative. He can think faster than he talks, but once he start
talking, he will talk non stop as if god has gifted him with that special
talk machine mouth. He likes to cut his hair short and he is very athletic.
He is a tall, slim and every movement of his is 'Fast' or nearly call
'Hyperactive'.

He has a long fingers and always tapping on table or moving his finger as if
he is trying to grab something. He is the type who will write or scribble on
paper, he never stay still. His hair always well comb or neat. He will spent
a long time to comb his hair. He will keep his manicure and pedicure clean.
He is a well dress and clean guy, so if you like cleanliness, you will love
him.

He will keep all his cloth
in big closet, and never throw away even shirts
he never wear any more, but yet he still keep buying new cloths and make
sure he is in style. He knows how to dress well even with a low budget. He
get bored easily with his favorite cloths , cologne. He is very picky, so
soap and his cologne even have to be in the same trend or same scent.

If you date this kind of guy, you might think you are dating 2 guys, you
will have to guess his feeling and emotion. Is he doing thing because it is
a duty, or is it because he wants to?

He change his mind as fast as he change a new pairs of shoes. He can pick up
a book and roughly read through and understand it's contents, so if you see
a Gemini man who reads the whole book, then he must be influenced by other
Zodiac.

He hate to set fix schedule, and dislike a boring same routine job. He could

hardly be on time, and can only keep time if it is complete important and
necessary. He does not come late because he forgets, but because he always
find other attractions along the way. He likes to act opposite to what he
wants to do. He is a very good speaker and make a very good politician. He
can easily persuade other people and well presented himself in public, a
real charmer. If he is a writer, he will write the best seller.

He always search for truth and constantly study himself. He never satisfy
about his fame, his reputation or money, because he thinks he deserved more.
He will keep searching even he is not sure what is his ultimate
satisfaction.

Woman in love normally wants to feel secure and stable, but if you fall in
love with this guy be prepare to be alone. He will come to see you when he
feels like it. He won't even
know how he spent his days everyday, so adjust
yourself if you love him.

Dating him is like dating 2 guys, so today he can tell you how much he loves
you, but tomorrow he might call you to cancel your date. When he upsets, he
could tell you he hate your dress, even it is the same dress he used to tell
you make you look very sexy. Do not ask him why he is that's way for he
won't have any explanations too. When he is back to normal mood, he will
take you out again and forget what just happened.

You can not expect him to be the same person now, and forever. His changes
will depend on you, for better or for worst. If you like to take risk and
dare for challenges, you will get along with him fine. He keeps his
emotional secretly as if hiding it, so you will not be able to see if he
crazy in love with you, or does not give a damn at all,
but be calm and
patient.

He will never leave you if he thinks you are a puzzle, then he will spent
times solving this puzzle.

soo accurate.
hahaa.

merry xmas!

2008-12-25T01:10:00.004+08:00

A BIG MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL!!!

its the 25th of dec already
just see how fast time flies
going to be 2009 soon already
looking back
do u have any regrets or things/words that u have wanted to do/say since long before
yet u hasn't?
maybe its time to already
do wad u wanted to and start 09 afresh

time fly really fast
before ii came to realize 08 is ending soon already
next year ii will be in year 2 already
everything would be different from before
less than 3more weeks of school im going to say goodbye to my dearest E36H
the feeling..
just like saying bye to my beloved W25F before
soo unwillingly to
mixed feelings,that words can no longer described

but no matter wad,
treasure wad is with u now and don leave in any regrets when u pass 08
wadever has pass can never be turn back

ALL THE BEST GUYS!!
LOVES, =)

meaningful

2008-12-25T01:00:00.001+08:00

Life is too short to wake up with regrets.
So love the people who treat you right. Forget about the one's who don't.
Believe everything happens for a reason.
If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands.
If it changes your life, let it.
Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.

*from a msg sent by my dear*

F.I.R- 需要你的爱

2008-12-21T23:22:00.004+08:00

1) Put your iTunes, windows media player, etc on Shuffle.
2) For each question, press the next button to get you answer.
3) YOU MUST WRITE THE SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4) Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5) Tag 6 people.

are you male of female?
吴克群-爱太痛(male??)

describe yourself
林凡-不要对我说爱

what do people feel when their around you?
3doors down-here without you

describe your current relationship.
Fish leong-分手快乐(huh?really ma??)

where would you like to be now?
sing shi- 幸运星

how do you feel about love?
戴爱玲-天使之翼(maybe?)

what's your life like?
Jolin Tsai-反复记号

what would you ask if you only had one wish?
Beyonce- beautiful liar

if someone says, "is this okay?"what you would say?
佘诗曼-等你

how would you describe yourself?
Fish- 崇拜

what do you like in a guy/girl?
Chris Brown-Run it

how do you feel today?
Jay Chou-借口

what's your motto?
Gary-两只恋人

what do your friends think of you?
sun yan zhi-原点(HUH?)

what do you think of your parents?
飞轮海-为你存在

what do you think about very often?
Sammi- 出界(HAHA!)

what is 2+2?
lee sheng jie-光年(LOL!!)

what do you think of the person you like?
FISH-为我好(maybe?)

what is you life story?
fan yi cheng- serena

what do you want to be when you grow up?
张信哲-逃生(??)

what do you think of when you see the person you like?
Raine yang-倔强(soo true!!)

what will you dance in your wedding?
Rihanna-take a bow

what will they play at your funeral?
罗志祥-呛司呛司(later kena whack!!)

what is your biggest fear?
Rainie Yang- 完美比例

what is you hobby/interest?
JOLIN-特务J

what is you biggest fear?
JOLIN-假装(HAHA)

what do you think of you friends?
will.i.am -heartbreaker(WTH!)

what will you post this as?
F.I.R- 需要你的爱

-post as wad ii told my dear that ii would,
but sorry my dear..
ii feel that this quiz is...
BULLSHIT!!!-
_____________________________________________________________

A. Tag 8 people to do this quiz.
Those that are tagged cannot refuse.

B. Continue this game by tagging 8 other people.
-those who feel like doing just do-
cause ii myself feel HUH!!

1. What have you been doing recently?
slacking at home, watch tv

2. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
Yes. to avoid SOMEONE

3. What happened at 10am today?
sleeping

4. When did you last cry?
Today

5. Believe in fate/destiny?
YES!!!

6. What do you need in your life now?
MONEY$$$$(im broke!!)

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put up your hood?
do nothing-ii like e rain

8. What's your favourite thing to do on the bed?
Sleep-WTH!!

9. What bottoms are you wearing now?
PE shorts

10. What's the nicest things in your inbox?
a msg sent by my dear- cannot rem e content, but its meaningful

11. Do you tend to make the relationship complicated?
WAD relationship??

12. Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
NO

13. What was the last movie you caught?
Twilight- its nice

14. What are you proud of?
myself!! haha

15. What does the oldest text msg in your inbox say?
its from my MOM!!asking where am ii!

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
Ina-ii wanted U

17. Do you have any nicknames?
ningning

18. What does the newest text say?
Secret!

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
2plus

20. Are you currently happy?
hmmm, ii donno also

21. Who gives you the best advise?
best??
hmmm, my dear bah
ii guess=)

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
No!
eww

23. Who did you talk on the phone last night?
nobody

24. Is something bugging you now?
Yes.
hais..

25. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
my baby boy=)

W25F=)

2008-12-21T23:07:00.002+08:00

hais
didn't went to work
jobless
the work we found in the end no news.
haiya
sadded=(
now looking for job again

anyways,
yesterday went out with my W25F cliques to Geylang for dinner
hahaa
soo spicy lo
each person is bout 20bucks
the food there consider okk lo
not bad
hahaa
after eating we walked all the way from City hall to Dobby Ghuat to play pool lo
hahaha
soo far
but quite fun and soo nice
can digest
soo we played till bout 11 then all got to go le
cause all got curfew
hais

but after all its really fun and ii really enjoyed=)

to all who went yesterday
- Xiujing& Weijie, Dom& Julin, SiKai, Cord, Daphne, Jun-
SORRY for being late yesterday and make u guys waited for soo long
and all thanks to u guys who turned up and make yesterday a fun day for me!!
hope to go out with u guys again soon
and rem our chalet next yr Feb!!
all must try to go leh!!
hahahaa

$$ for shopping

2008-12-16T17:04:00.004+08:00

hmmm
these few days kinda broke soo never went anywhere
but
tmr onwards ii will be going work with baby boy to pass the 3weeks holiday
we will be working from 8pm to 8am
hais
soo tiring
but to earn $$
no choice..

but there is one problem
im gg out with dear they all on sat.
how??
hais
thinking to ask they all go out on the afternoon
soo at night they go eat ii go work
but...
donno if they can or not
hahaa
the pay is good
3weeks $1760 plus.
hahaa
then got $$ to go shopping already
*happy*
hahahaa

shortage of $$!!

2008-12-14T02:19:00.004+08:00

hais hais hais
Christmas coming
have to save $$ to buy presents
going to eat steamboat
survive through the 3weeks holiday
haiyo...
soo..
mon got to go work already
still lazy really got to starve already

working from next mon to thurs
try to earn more $$ to buy my things and to go out also
hahaa
this sat going to Geylang for steamboat with my W25F cliques

and something worth being happy over
miracle really happened for XJ
her dreams really came true
soo as ii always say
if u like someone
no harm giving it a try
u will never know if u never try=)
all the best my dear
ii believe all ur efforts were paid off

counting down..
11 more days =p

pics with nerissa

2008-12-12T12:03:00.004+08:00

break between lesson!!
hahaa.
took with nerissa cause we finally figure out maths soo fast for the first time!
hahaa.

failed to turn back time

2008-12-07T00:36:00.005+08:00

3 days consecutively holiday
hmmm
thinking wad can ii do for this few days
cannot over spend
have to save up for Christmas present
and to survive through the 3weeks holiday
hais
now really like broke lo
but yet kinda lazy to work siah
really deserve to kena one tight slap la
no $$ yet can still be lazy to work
one day really will die of hunger siah
hais..
3weeks holiday coming
think that ii should really go work already
if not really got to eat grass le=(

XJ told me she really give up waiting le
she feels that no point clinging onto it le
hais
sometimes ii just feel that is tad really soo easy to just forget someone and move on?
it really takes alot of determination to do soo
ii know for XJ it will be really hard
2yrs not 2 months
even 2 months also needs hell lot of determination
moreover 2 yrs
at least u did tried and even if it was not wad u wanted
but at least u got an answer
compared to those who did not try and just give up

anyways,
jia you my dear
no matter wad happens
u still have me=)

-one last time-

2008-12-02T15:59:00.004+08:00

all ii had done
out to protect u
the things ii said and everything
thinking back
sometimes ii just wonder..
will u ever be thankful
or u just take it for granted
this will be the last time ii will ever do tad
such a stupid act
knowing that u will never be grateful
ii learned to be nicer to myself
its the last time
no more next time
because of u ii have become the bad person
and to portray u as the good one
never will ii do soo anymore.

-all ur actions tells me soo
u have ur new cliques
ii think we will just stay this way then.-

well done!!=)

2008-12-01T22:56:00.002+08:00

Last published Daily Grade and UT Grade for each modules

A102-3-E36H-A : Problem 11 - B UT 1 - C

G106-2-E36H-A : Problem 11 - A UT 2 - C+

G103-8-E36H-A : Problem 11 - A UT 2 - B

A112-4-E36H-A : Problem 11 - D UT 1 - F

G102-1-E36H-A : Problem 12 - A UT 1 - C+

my daily grades..
cool huh?
hahaa
ii hate computing!!!
hahahaa

ARRGH!!!!!

2008-12-01T14:48:00.002+08:00

everyone seems to dig out on the past again
all because of ur freaking post
wad the freak u wan now?
to tell e whole world u are the victim and we are the baddies?
eh enough la
crying over small things
acting pity infront of others
FAKE!!!
ii was the one who say ii felt that u are a flirt not XJ
all actions shows all
its makes me feel tad
don tell others u did not
check on ur actions
if u did not then maybe its just e way u behave
but ya
tads wad ii feel
stop trying to act pity
and u are the one tad ruins our friendship
leaving everything unexplained
and just posting untrue facts on ur blog
stop everything la
u are making me freaking pissed off by ur actions!!!

rewinding back the past, can ii?

2008-11-27T01:10:00.002+08:00

for all the things ii have done
it just seems to go down the drain
trying soo hard really hard to keep it going
but it seems hard
its like there is nth ii can do now already

miracle, will it ever happen?
inside me it just feel like everything had went out of place
the unconditional love, ii used to feel.
am ii still holding it?
or it was gone long ago already?
never knew ii could hurt like this

-saying goodbye, is the last thing ii ever want to do-

best friends?close friends?friends?

2008-11-18T23:42:00.003+08:00

soo happy to see that my DG improved
no red marks for the last week and all Bs and only 1 C for science
hahaa
hmmm
ya cause ii was scared to repeat module and thus have to work extra hard
and hope that ii wont

anyways,
kinda thinking alot these few days
it seems like we have drifted apart and no longer as close as before already
ii once told u before nothing can/should affect our friendship
yet now..
maybe things just wont stay the way we wished it would
it seems like things about you ii will now be the last to know compared to the past
maybe someone has replaced me to u
maybe u feel that there is others to acc u and u longer need me
or u just feel that ii have no time for u
but to tell u
u are soo called irreplaceable
but now..
just hope we can still stay as friends in this level
maybe never the same anymore
but pls don drift too far..

we can no longer be like how we are before
joke about everything
the trips we had
just e both of us
the way u talk to me ii just find it soo different from the way u talk to them
maybe u may find me sensitive
but maybe u should also ask urself
am ii really thinking too much?
or tads the fact?

-if u do, please tell me-

2008-11-13T15:31:00.004+08:00

ii love u XJ!!
hahaa
tads wad u wan me to say

ii just like listening to this song now
hahaa

Jonas Brothers - When You Look Me In The Eyes

If the heart is always searching
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone
I'll never make it on my own
Dreams can't take the place of loving you
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true

When you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's all right
When you're right here by my side
When you look me in the eyes
I catch a glimpse of heaven
I find my paradise
When you look me in the eyes

How long will I be waiting
To be with you again?
I'm gonna tell you that I love you
In the best way that I can
I can't take a day without you here
You're the light
That makes my darkness disappear

When you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's all right
When you're right here by my side
When you look me in the eyes
I catch a glimpse of heaven
I find my paradise
When you look me in the eyes

More and more
I start to realize
I can reach my tomorrow
I can hold my head up high
And it's all because you're by my side

When you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's all right
When you're right here by my side

When I hold you in my arms
I know that's it's forever
I just gotta let you know
I never wanna let you go

'Cause when you look me in the eyes
And tell me that you love me
Everything's all right
(It's all right)
When you're right here by my side
(By my side)
When you look me in the eyes
I catch a glimpse of heaven
Oh, I find my paradise
When you look me in the eyes

but u never did..
tired
giving up losing hope..

-since im not ur everything, ii'll rather be nth at all to u-

2008-11-11T11:14:00.003+08:00

sometimes ii just donno wad to write
thus ii rather don update

today comm UT
soo difficult
hais
donno wads wrong but im just feeling moody
no mood to do anything
sometimes ii just don get it
why promises made are broken soo easily?
ARRGH!!
maybe ii will update tonight again
see how it goes

-no regrets?-

2008-11-07T13:42:00.003+08:00

these few days kinda lack of update
really lazy
hahaa.
hmm..
anyways,
wad ii wrote for my previous post somehow answers are gotten already
soo ya..
wadever ii had decided ii hope ii will never have any regrets
sometimes some things just wont go as u wish
but yet life still has to go on
some things u just foolishly tried to change
but yet at the end of the day u learned that nth will ever change anything
all seems fated
the efforts that ii put in didn't change
soo just let it be this way then
all turned out soo differently from wad u thought it will turn out to be like
all ii can say its just too little too late
-destined-

-hOw can ii forget U,when everything reminds me Of U?-

2008-11-03T00:19:00.005+08:00

wad am ii supposed to do now?
im soo tired
not mentally tired but the tiredness im feeling drained me
my heart is soo tired until ii could feel tad it may just stop the next min
ii thought things would turn out right
but it did not
maybe im just foolish enough to think that it will
some things u chose to leave it unsaid
u left me standing there dumbfounded
do ii really mean anything to u?
ii don think soo
if not ii wouldnt be feeling this way now
soo damn f-ing worse
the pain tad was seemingly on hold via a painkiller
is making me feel soo..

seriously saying,
ii hate tad
ii hate tad feeling
the feeling im suffering now makes me feel like..
never wanting to see u in my whole life anymore!

U left me standing there..

2008-11-01T22:20:00.004+08:00

went to play pool today at amk
but wasn't feeling well
maybe due to lack of sleep for the past few days
soo ii will try to sleep early tonight
haha.

-and thanks to "U" for everything u had done for me
really thanks lots
as wad u said we are true friends
haha.
soo ya
thanks for not leaving me there feeling lost
and stand by me when ii was on the verge of breaking down just now
when ii was on crossroads lost between options.
although u did not say much
but ur company makes me feel much better and smile again
u tried ur best to cheer me up
make me smile when my tears was on the verge on dropping down
im feeling better now
after today ii will stand up again
ii had my answers already
ii know its really time to give up
thank "you" for everything u had done
whether to stand by me or just a silly joke/comment to make me smile
u are indeed a true friend=)
as wad u say
maybe ii should really give it a try
ii never know if ii never try
soo ya
rem wadever decision ii make
we will always be friends..good friends-

broke brOke BROKE!!!

2008-10-31T21:26:00.005+08:00

went out with JM just now
and did not go work today
haha
kinda lazy
soo ya
we went TM for shopping
actually wanted to buy the top ii saw at MNG
but in the end ii did not
thinking of saving up the money for tmr's pool
haha
going out with my E36H classmates to play pool tmr
and getting my top also
haha
have to really enjoy myself before e school starts
if not sch starts UTs all in a row
must stress cannot enjoy=(
hais
hahaha

DESIRE-PUMA BAG!!

2008-10-30T22:20:00.003+08:00

really kinda tired nowadays
it seems tad ii tire out more easily on holidays
ii also donno y=(
ytd slept at 11 but now my eyes cant seem to open le
really tired
hais

but ii went out with my dear today and ii bought new clothes and shoe
haha
soo happy!
and me and dear went to eat thai food today
its nice
but the curry is spicy really spicy
ii can still feel the hotness in my stomach now=(

and!!
ii saw the puma bag ii wanted again
ii really feel like buying lo
but 70bucks..
at this point of time really kinda budget to buy it lo
hais
should ii buy??

but ya
after shopping ii went for work and was like really lazy to go
but thinking of the $$
it motivated me to drag myself there
haha

tmr going work again
sians
but tmr JM will be meeting me for lunch at WS
then accompany me to work
hahaha
soo happy
at least not alone again
hahaha

-REST!REST!PLENTY OF REST NEEDED!!!-

2008-10-29T16:03:00.008+08:00

tired tiRed TIRED!!!
not enough sleep nowadays
ii keep missing the golden sleeping period this past few weeks
and im like soo called mentally drained now=(
kinda tiring when u don sleep in-between 11-2am
and its like no matter how much u sleep just seems tad u are unable to feel energetic
hais hais hais

went out with my W25F friends ytd
quite fun and "he" came down to find me ytd
hahaha
-soo sorry Jolin really don mean to "cleanly forgotten" u one
will rem to call u next time
but..pls make sure when we call u u are able to make it!!!
always soo busy with other things one lo u!!!-
haha
soo ya
after pool we went off round 6plus as xj got to go back home for dinner
and before we went off we even went to CHEERS to buy jack daniel to drink
all just in a sudden mood of drinking
hahah
and ii just drank like half a bottle
my whole body went red again!
omg
haha
-and dear rem our date next week for K box hor!
in the meantime must save $$$ also then u can rebond ur hair asap le-
hahaha

and im soo tired=(
still got to go work ltr
sians sians sians!!!

-bOring bORing BORING!!-

2008-10-27T15:36:00.004+08:00

u guys should notice tad ii had been changing my blog skin lately
its not out of fun
im just trying to find the most suitable one
at this point of time im still thinking if this is the right one
haha.
but ii have decided to move away from dark backgrounds as it makes me look even more emo
soo ya
ii found this one.
cute?
haha

anyways.
this 2days ii was kinda lazy to update
but nth much happen also
all my darlings are busy working as today is a PH
soo no off days for them
and me?
got to stay at home to rot
hais
but these 2 days manage to do some house chores and ii cleaned up my room!
wahaha
and the happy thing is tmr ii will be out of my house
finally!!
hahaha
going to play pool at amk with my W25F classmates=)
its been soo long since we last went there to play
like was bout a month ago
which was my bdae tad day
haha

but the sad thing is...
im going work ltr
hope my boss would be kind enough to give me my pay today
(kinda broke when it comes to holiday)
and my mom did the same thing again
running back without giving me allowance
arrgh
im going to claim from her when she comes back
wahaha
ii got the sudden urge to cut my hair
to go bugis for shopping
to go kbox
to do lots and lots of stuff
but..
im broke!!
soo..
mission impossible=(

anyways,
thanks guys!!
(those who had stood by me when ii needed help)
ii think ii had walk out of all those unhappy stuffs
ii had choosen wad ii think is the best for me
and to u guys ii hope u all will be able to walk out of it soon
and..
SMILES!!=)

-picking up,starting all over again-

2008-10-25T00:05:00.005+08:00

omg!
ii seem to lose focus and concentration today
sth is bothering me
ii know wad is it
but ii donno how to say in words or to type it down
-letting it go-
it had never belong to me right from the start but y am ii soo afraid of losing it?
anyways,
ii had made up my mind
ii know wad to do and how to decide

ii will treasure the one who love me and let go the one who will never belong to me
don ask me why anymore
it was u who made me make this choice
ii thought it through
believe its the best for us
-don waver my decision-
-当我下定决心离开时, 不要再动摇我了-
its just too little too late.
let it go believing its the best for us
hoping all these would last
but dreams are always stricken by reality
its time to wake up and move on.

-iloveyou-

-undescRiptive-

2008-10-23T14:21:00.010+08:00

never expected myself to fall soo deep
wad should ii do?
the more ii know him the more confuse ii get
arrogant?sweet?
ii donno
can this 2 things happen on the same person?
ii hope it can
he's sweet to me really sweet
but at the same time he's really arrogant too
ii donno
ii just feel really insecure being with him
ii donno wad u are thinking
at times u can be soo deep in thoughts
u know wad?
ii feel really uncertain
u can be really nice to me this min
yet it seems that ii would never know wad will u be the next min.
whenever ii ask u
ii can also predict ur given answer "nothing"
its tiring really tiring..
wads the definition of "us" to u?

how far can we go?
or we will just stop here?
sth in-between is stopping us from going further
ii don mind falling deep real deep
ii seriously don mind
but wad im afraid is..
am ii be able to pull myself out in the nick of time when ii have to
am ii be to let go when its time to

the confusion is making me feel really worse
will ii be able to clear the mist that had been cast?
ii really hope im able to..
-ily-

<..let it gO..>

2008-10-21T00:53:00.006+08:00

some things just destined this way
its just too little too late
will things turn out differently if u said tad earlier?
ii guess it would have
but ii know its too late now
the timing was wrong
soo its fated tad all these turned way out from wads expected.

-maybe its time to let go already-

林峰- 爱不疚

收藏在眼眸常徘徊左右爱猜到没有
愉快玩笑後能全然退後你开心就够
这种感觉太亲厚讲一千句也不够
假使讲了你听到後或会走
这种恋爱太罕有不须真正拥有
成全衷心祝福然後就放手

放手放开所有彼此更自由
放手其实我绝非爱得不够
放手豁出所有还有这个好友
已经已经足够

遥远是宇宙静静在背後去看守就够
这种感觉太亲厚讲一千句也不够
即使一刹有过冲动挽你手
这种恋爱太罕有不须真正拥有
成全多舍不得仍然是放手
放手放开所有彼此更自由
放手其实我绝非爱得不够
放手豁出所有还有这个好友
已经已经足够

放手我的牵挂找不到尽头
放手期望你幸福甚麽都有
也许爱很深厚然而我早看得透
放手至可拥有

-trying hard to maintain the equilibrium-

2008-10-20T00:22:00.007+08:00

ii just feel tad its way too fast
some things shouldn't turn out this way
im starting to lose the balance
the balance btw us

who am ii to u?
friend?or sth else?
ii donno
u can be soo random at times
its really hard to guess wad are u really thinking
e way u treat me really makes me think far and sth more than it should be

wad should ii do?
how should ii react?
who am ii to u?
if im nothing to u then stop wadever u are doing now
it really makes me get the wrong idea
and ii really don wan to

-please don ask me who is he-

lOve quOtes

2008-10-18T15:20:00.004+08:00

-The hardest part
of loving someone
is knowing when to let go,
and knowing when to say goodbye.-

-You fail to see the one
who loves you standing
right in front as does
she fail to see you love her in turn.
Don't wait to tell her
because it might be to late then-

-Love begins with a smile,
grows with a kiss,
and ends with a teardrop.-

-It takes a couple seconds to say Hello,
but forever to say Goodbye.-

-Relationships are like glass.
Sometimes it's better to leave them broken
than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.-

-Don't Cry Over Someone
That Won't Cry Over You.-

-Moving on is simple,
it's what you leave
behind that makes it so difficult-

-Sometimes it's hard
to love someone
because you're so
afraid of losing them-

-Never say goodbye
when you still want to try.
never give up
when you still feel
that you can take it.
never say you no longer love a person
when you can't let go..-

-I'm sorry for crying over you,
because I said I wouldn't.
But I didn't promise you that,
because I knew it would be a promise
I would never be able to keep.-

-Never say 'I like you'
if you don't care.
never talk about feelings
if they're not there.
never touch a life
if you mean to break a heart.-

-Have you ever noticed that the worst way
to miss someone is when they are right
beside you and you can never have them?-

-If someone you love hurts you cry a river,
build a bridge, and get over it.-

http://www.inlovequote.com

<..feelings in me bOut U..>

2008-10-17T12:33:00.004+08:00

ii saw him on the bus today
he was empty handed and did not go school

dear saw me at the bustop
but ii did not see her
omg!im blind
she called me and tell me and ii was like LOL
haha
he talked to me when we were on the way to woodlands
and even acc me to sch and all the way to class
haha

but the feeling seem soo..
unrealistic
hais
ii donno how to say
but ii just feel that
somehow sth is missing
and ii donno wad is it

but afterall he's fun
and cute
haha
he jokes and makes me LMAO
haha

-nth is gOing to change anything-

2008-10-13T23:05:00.006+08:00

how much effort does it take to forget someone?
to forget the memories you guys once shared,
the sweetness tad once warmed ur heart?
everything and everything
how long and how much determination does it take to do soo?

just now ii had a really long chat with JM
im feeling better
or am ii supposed to feel better now?
ii donno..
ii just need someone who is able to lend me his/her listening ear
all my dears seems to be troubled by their own problems.
soo the next one who uds my problem the most is him le.
thanks lots for lending me ur "ears" and the consultation u gave.
im feeling much better now or at least ii somehow know wad to do le.

ii know now its not the time to let all these stupid stuff occupy my mind
but ii really cant help it..
now its the time ii should channel all my attention to my studies and get prepared for my upcoming UTs.
ok..
at least ii did studied and im prepared for tmr's UT.

-ii believe time heals everything
there's nth ii can do now
but to let everything sink down to the bottom of my heart.
the memories..imy-

-irReversible-

2008-10-11T22:27:00.003+08:00

went to eat steamboat just now with my W25F friends
it was only like 16bucks.
but its really spicy and my stomach feels "something" now
haha
just like ii feel tad xj is really upset now
even though he came but it was worse compared to him not coming
hais
cord also..
she and ZH seems to have alot of problems and the class too..
ii tried my best entertaining them and at least they did laugh.
but some things are not just laughter that is able to solve everything
if u cannot avoid it then solve it
although it will be painful really painful
-痛到不能再痛时就会复原了-
tads wad ii always tell myself
although u will feel the pain but u will recover after the pain
definitely will..
the kinda disappointment im feeling now will soon subside
and ii will be able to walk out of it..walk out of ur life
-some people are just not worth waiting just things are just not fated to be-

<..mOving on..>我错了泪干了放手了后悔了

2008-10-11T00:10:00.001+08:00

ii just don feel good/happy at all
ii donno y
sth happened but why am ii soo affected by it?
ii shouldn't be
ii lied
ii don feel happy at all
know wad?
ii stared in the blank space day dreaming again
and when someone ask me wad was ii thinking
ii cant even answer
OMG
wads wrong??
ii feel soo..arrgh!!

S.H.E - 安静了

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属于我们的婚礼
却成了单人结婚进行曲
在这场爱情角力的拔河里
爱我还是爱你
你选择了自己
Woo~
撒娇的可爱的黏人的爱哭的
照片里曾经的都是你喜欢的
如今我还在原地
你却走回你的记忆

你说我爱你太多
就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱
让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空
你是不是能够给我

你说我给你太多
却不能给我什么
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口
我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最后温柔
是因为我太爱你

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属于我们的婚礼
安静了在我枕边的梦里
我知道相爱原本就不容易
爱不是1加1 努力就有结局
Woo~
撒娇的可爱的黏人的爱哭的
照片里曾经的都是爱着你的
脸颊的泪还温热
却没有人握我的手

你说我爱你太多
就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱
让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空
你是不是能够给我

你说我给你太多
却不能给我什么
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口
我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最后温柔
是因为我太爱你

-a sOng to describe how im feeling now-

persOnality Of me!

2008-10-09T20:04:00.004+08:00

this is an email ii saw and ii found tad it was quite accurate.
hahaha
soo u guys take a look and see it really reflects my character bah:)

*LIBRA WOMAN*

Libra woman mostly has an egg oval facial shape. She has a nice smooth
skin
and a good figure. She will spent so much efforts to keep her skin clean and
pretty. She can be easily allergy to cosmetic and make up, but taken care of
her face and avoid wrinkle is her hobby. She is good at it and tend to look
younger than her age.

She can be very naughty like a little boy, but yet fully 100% woman. She
looks nice in either Jean or night gown. She thinks woman is equal to man.
Sometimes she can think faster than you, but she will not leave you far
behind. She will try not to make you feel like you are competed or defeated
in any games she plays with you even she is winning.

She is a little flirt even she has no idea what she wants. She can not
decide what to do, and what not to do, so she can not set her schedule very
well in all cases.

She is gifted with how to dress, and how to match her dress. She
likes to
dress in black and wear perfume. She likes a mild flowery scent.

In any argument, she can really argue. She can argue for hours, and mostly
win the argument. If it is not a serious argument, she could argue and once
a while give you a smile also. She will make a good politician, because she
can tell which party will win the election.

She always has a good reasons ,even she likes to contradict herself. She can
not decide what is right and wrong for her, because everything has a good
side and a bad side. Woman in other Zodiac might not care what other people
think, but Libra woman care what other people ,or what you feel as much as
her own feeling.

She can adjust to her environment very well, so at work she will be at the
ladder up. She likes team work in doing things. If you ask her for help or
advice, she will help you
except if she does not like your guts. She can
change you and make you think you change by yourself without her influence.

Good side of being with Libra woman are she never interfere with your
privacy. She will not make you loose face in front of your friends. Even she
cares about how much money she has left his her bank account, she will never
forget to let you know how much she cares for you.

She think taken care of the house is a woman job and she can do it well. But
if you expect a Libra woman to fear you, then you are wrong. She is a strong
woman even she looks at you with that sweet innocent pairs of baby's looks
and may loose you (let you win) in a few poker games.

If she is the one you are after, then go step by step. The best way is using
her friends introducing you to her. Do not make her feel or treat her like a
bubble
head. You have to move forward toward her with confident and secure.
Show her that you are a kind , polite and a real gentleman. Be a slow hand
or else you might get smack!

im sOrry!

2008-10-09T15:39:00.003+08:00

today sci UT
hais
ii did not manage to finish it on time
another C or D again

ii donno y ii wasn't in a good mood today
today ii nearly quarreled with dear just because of some stupid stuffs
ii was somehow angry over her for sth.
but now ok le=)
ii know she don mean it de
it was me being too sensitive and soo
thoughts run wild..
LOL
anyways,
now ok le
cause she "pacify" me
haha

-sorry dear-
ii don meant it de
it was just me feeling down and ii needed to talk to u
yet u..
hais
nvm=)
over le
wadever im unhappy bout will blow over very soon de
and u will see my teeth again
wahaha.

[..over it..]

2008-10-08T23:17:00.007+08:00

staring in the blank space for the whole 1hr.
ii don know wad to do either wad am ii thinking of
my mind just went blank for tad hr.
tmr is mine sci 1st UT
ii shOuld be studying yet im not
ii should not be thinking of all those things now
yet ii am..
ii just don feel good at all
im feeling really down and moody.
wad happened?
ii dont know..

after sch went to lib to study with dear and my classmates.
ii was not at all in the mood to study
ii felt soo drained
drained by the things tad happened
the topic ii was studying
basically just everything.
dear herself was not in a good mood yet she still somehow managed to cheer me up
thanks!=)

-wad im thinking now-
promises made seems fragile
but why do people still make it?
and treasured them?
in the end the promises u made..
u broke it.
don promise me anything when u ain't going to keep it.
when its broken it upsets me even more
and since tads e only thing u can do w/o any explanation
then soo be it bah..

im just soo soo soo tired nowadays.
tired of?
everything..
its makes me lose focus and concentration on things im supposed to do
its time to get back onto the right track
since there is nth either u or me could do or say
then just leave it undone and unsaid bah.

*a BIG thanks to u guys for staying back to help me today=)
and U for tad big lie u told just to acc me=)*
LOL.

<..eveRything changed..>

2008-10-08T11:35:00.004+08:00

u prOmised nth will change our friendship
u promised u wont distant me
yet wad u say and u did..
contradicts..

ii regret telling u wad ii told u
ii really do..
everything changed
its never the same like before anymore
ii lose u
a friend..
ii treasured

im sOrry..
why?
y did u lie to me?
wadever ii told u shouldn't affect our friendship
yet now..
it did..

-never gOnna be the same anymore-

ut uts and UTIES!!!

2008-10-07T21:00:00.007+08:00

today A102[sci]
hais
expecting another C again
ii thought ii would have at least a B today because..
Jacky is in my team
yet during presentation only Jacky and Gabriel answered most of the qn
the rest was like stun!
and ii can see tad e facilitator was like somehow very unhappy with us.
and today RJ qn is.. "Tell me your contribution to today's problem (individual and team)."
ii don think ii even contributed
soo wad am ii suppose to write inside my RJ?
hais..

after school went to study for thurs sci UT.
first problem im already like..stuck?
today enterprise UT ii don even think ii will do well also lo
even after soo much help from my classmates ytd who specially stayed back to help me
dear even sent me e UT notes she made
but ii only saw tad after my UT
haha.
anyways,
thanks dear and my sweet classmates!
LOL

im going to study for my sci UT le
ii don wanna fail!!=(

-thanks darlings for today and e gift!-

2008-10-05T00:27:00.003+08:00

today went out with my darlings for Kbox.
hahahha
and they passed me my belated bdae gift
its a FILA bag=)
thanks darlings!!
sang till 10plus and we actually intend to catch a midnight movie but we did not
cause im down on flu and keep sneezing soo don really have the no mood to go
and soo all went back home=(
hais

soo xin ku lo=(
and worse still my house ran out of medicine le
soo got to wait for it to recover itself

and know wad?
ii saw"him"today
he was with his brother
hais
never really talk much=(
but anyways,
ii really feel tad its time to move on already
ii have been rounding on the same spot for too long le
ii have waited soo soo soo long for U
when ii clearly uds tad there will never be anything between us..
soo..no point le
since my mr right will never be U

and..im soo damn sick now!
arrgh!!!

hoping ii will recover tmr..=)

<..wOrds for U..>

2008-10-03T23:33:00.003+08:00

"Take a look at what you have. Think of all you did to get it. Remember it only takes one second to lose."

tell the person u like him/her when u do
chances can disappear the next minute
ii lost the chance of saying it
and ii will never have the chance to any more
ii encouraged xj to tell e person she like how she feels towards him
and now they are progressing!
however, its easy to say yet takes great determination to be done
my dear is really brave!
hais
ii just hope tad ii can treasure wad ii have now
if u like someone say it out
leaving words unsaid is just like letting someone u love loving someone else
the pain is equally unbearable.

moments of despair

2008-10-03T20:30:00.006+08:00

hais hais hais..
im soo hungry soo tired and soo upset!!!
there is nth for me to eat and im starving=(
my stomach is growling very loudly now
but yet im too lazy to even move now
LOL

anyway,
although im no longer angry yet im still feeling very upset/disappointed
hais
things change really fast
its like wadever ii have now will be lost in just a split second
everything is soo different now
ii know nothing can turn back time le
wadever is lost its lost forever already.

and today im just down on luck
is it because of e dress ii wore today?
ii notice whenever ii wear tad sth bad will happen
my bus went off without me this morning,
my phone is spoilt! it has no alert for incoming messages,
ii saw their PM found out tad ii was cheated by e two of them
cognitive made me sooo stress till ii broke down and cry..
ii never felt tad helpless before and ii really doubt my IQ now
am ii really too dumb/stupid to understand wad had been taught?
hais
wadever it is
im NOT giving up
ii believe ii will do better next week=)

unforgivable

2008-10-03T11:36:00.004+08:00

today G102[cognitive]
ARRGH!!!
its bout [PARABLES]
just hearing the name im already stun
ii don uds a single thing even till now.
wth!!!
y is cognitive soo damn difficult?
hais
can ii just give up?

know wad?
ii saw someone's PM this morning
the first thing ii was like WTH!!
ii did ask u before yet u deny it
now u put it as ur pm
frankly speaking ii was really pissed off by u two
y did u guys lie to me?
ii hate tad
seriously saying ii don even feel like seeing u two now
-y some people are just soo...-
ARRGH
xj is really pissed
ii can uds how she feel cause ii somehow feel tad too
u have a BF yet u are flirting with e person my dear likes
its makes me dislike U seriously.

misses..tO be left behind

2008-10-01T20:05:00.021+08:00

today ii was supposed to go out
yet..
im stuck at home.
hais..
cause its HARI RAYA today and soo xiu and the rest could not take off and have to work!
soo no choice have to postpone to fri/sat le lo=(
but anyways,
its not a bad thing after all
ii finished up things tad ii was supposed to since weeks ago
accompanied my grandmother for dinner and she told me alot of things=)
ii even changed my blog skin
hahaha
and sorted out things tad ii have been thinking for quite some time..

maybe its time le
-fated to meet, not meant to be-
someone asked me today..
wad do u see as someone tad is e right one for u?
ii hesitated for awhile
maybe ii myself don even know..
but ii answered him
all depends on feelings bah
expectations are not accurate when it comes to lOve.

sOmeone to have and hold with all my heart and sOul,
sOmeone who will stay arOund through all my ups and downs.

-its blissful to know someone likes u
yet painful to learn tad u had fallen for someone-
never like sOmeone whom u knOw will never like u
ii knOw its difficult
but dOnt!!
never never never u shOuld
cause its painful..

sentosa!!!

2008-09-30T23:52:00.005+08:00

today ii went sentosa to celebrate my sweet 18th bdae
its was really fun and ii really enjoyed
they even went to buy me a cake to sentosa which really touched me as thay was really strong wind there and looks really weird with a cake there.
xj even remembered ii love cheesecake and bought me tad
hahahaha
thanks dear!!

-for those who went today..
really thanks lots!!!
ii really had a great time and ii hope W25F will always stay as united as we used to be no matter wad happens!-
once again thanks lots and lots guys!!!
*muacks!*

we left sentosa at round 3plus cause there is no sun and yet a heavy downpour
soo..we cant sun-tan thus we left for sushi at Novena then headed to amk for pool
hahaha
it was really fun!
but the sad thing was that we did not took much pics today=(
nvm..
memories are left in our hearts and not on my blog=)

and im 18 now!!!
wahahahah
soo happy!!!
ii can watch "mirrors" le!=P

sadded!!!

2008-09-29T09:36:00.006+08:00

ii just realise something
ii got all C and a F for my last week's grade
soo damn sad man!
hais
maybe its time to buck up le
ii have to depend on my daily grade to score
ii cant score in UTs
yet now ii cant even score in DG

its time really to study hard and pay 100% attention in class le
no more drama shows in class

ii told myself to start studying for enterprise UT since last week till now ii haven even started
wth!!!

A102[science] today
ii hate sci
but no choice have to struggle through
ii don wan another F.

piglet for my bdae from my sweet classmates!!!

2008-09-25T21:08:00.003+08:00

today G102[cognitive again]!!
sad to say ii know ii wont even get a C this week
soo sad!
ii got 3C for consecutively 3 weeks le
soo damn demoralize..
hais..

but anyway im still happy today!
soo sweet of my classmates to buy me a piglet for my birthday.
hahaha
ii was really shocked that they can even rem my bdae and bought me a present as ii just know them
but u guys made me take it all the way from school back home and ii don even dare to go work!
LOL
wahahaa
anyway..
still a BIG THANK YOU to u guys as u guys are really nice and sweet!=)

just for U!

2008-09-25T10:02:00.004+08:00

as to reply to wad ii had saw from someone's blog.
-ii treated u as friend tads y ii was soo damn F up by wad u said
if ii don ii wont even give a damn!
if u regard me as a friend u wont tell jun all those things
when ii heard wad he told e u said..
xj told u wad ii did
ii treated u as friend ii really do
ii even tell xj forget it ii uds cause jun is ur friend
but e word u used really shocked me
u were soo nice in front of me yet behind me u told jun such things
how do u expect me to react?

from the post ii saw from ur blog
all ii can say is u are too affected by wad jun said
his thinking is just soo extreme
and wad u feel and wad ii perceive may be different
but tads wad ii feel-

ii miss u..

2008-09-24T21:10:00.009+08:00

明天以后 - 林峰泳儿

在你的记忆里面有一个我
在你最痛苦的时候陪你度过
难过过了天晴朗了我就走
你拯救我的寂寞我的痛我的梦
在你的面前我不必保留
还来不及对你说迟到的我的心动
你的好你的坏
我的脾气你最懂
我不要你心疼我（我不要你离开我）
明天的以后我们会懂
失恋的挫折让人变更成熟
我对你感觉胜过爱情
因为有你给我勇气
给我用不完的运气
其实也想好好爱你
只怕到最后不小心让你伤心（我不怕会伤心）
对不起我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起
最后看你在别人怀里
有天我会找到我的唯一（我并不是你的唯一）
还微笑祝福你

你拯救我的寂寞我的痛我的梦
在你的面前我不必保留
我从来没对你说压抑的我的心动
我的好我的坏我的脾气你最懂
我不要你来心疼我
明天的以后我们会懂
失恋的挫折让人变更成熟
我对你感觉胜过爱情
因为有你给我勇气
给我用不完的运气
其实也想好好爱你
只怕到最后不小心让你伤心（我不怕会伤心）
对不起我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起
最后看你在别人怀里
有天我会找到我的唯一（我并不是你的唯一）
还微笑祝福你

爱情总让人折磨
所以我们才选择做比情人更好的朋友
我对你感觉胜过爱情
因为有你给我勇气
给我用不完的运气
其实也想好好爱你
只怕到最后不小心让你伤心（我不怕会伤心）
对不起我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起
最后看你在别人怀里
有天我会找到我的唯一（我并不是你的唯一）
还微笑祝福你

ii just find this song meaningful
*我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起..所以我才选择做比情人更好的朋友*
at this point of time this is how ii feel

ii always tell myself there is nothing ii can do to change anything
all are fated..
but..
ii just cant do it
wad can ii do to turn back time?
imy

"You will never know true happiness
until you have truly loved
and you will never understand
what pain really is
until you have lost it"

-ii know wads pain now
cause ii lost u..-

my cute new hairstyle=)

2008-09-24T19:13:00.003+08:00

today G103[communication]

quite fun as my group did a skit but ii doubt ii am able to get an A today..[sixth sense]
hahas

and nerissa helped me to tie my hair cause ii dont know how to tie that myself
wahaha
nice??

its soo cute!
yet ii donno how to tie it and ii cant tie it very often as it will spoil my hair
sad=(

im soo tired today soo ii did not go work again!
hais...

know wad?
ii saw something today that disgust me totally
http://profiles.friendster.com/51478588
u guys can go see
but please don eat first!!
im afraid u might just vomit infront of ur computer!
LOL

im soo tired!!!
y do we have to do RJ everyday??
ARRGH!
SIANSATION!

ARRGH!!

2008-09-23T22:54:00.003+08:00

I HATE LEO!!!!
ii cant do my RJ
ii cant log in to leo
wad the hell is wrong with my comp or even the system?
soo F up by soo many things today

today ii went to work the people ii talked to are just soo rude!!
ARRGH!!!
ii feel like just scolding them la!
-did u even attend CME lesson in sec or pri sch?
do u even know wad is basic manners?!-
wtf!!!

ARRGH!!!
and today ii saw something.
seriously saying ii was kinda pissed of by her!
-eh u send both of us the same thing yet y must u change the way u write?!-
to be clearer its someone from W25F
u should know im referring to u!
if tads the way then next time don even need to send me anything
cause ii don need!!
the way ii write may sound really mean but tads wad ii feel!
and too bad im not in a good mood today

ii was hoping for a B for today module yet stupid things keep happening
AHHHH!!!

the good things tad happen cant even cover the worst things ii encounter!

ii hate U!!!
ii hate leo!!!
ii hate rude people!!
ii hate...ARRGH!!!!

pool!!!wahahaha

2008-09-22T22:32:00.003+08:00

today A102[science]..
soo boring cause ii don understand and the group left me out=(
at first ii was really angry de lo!! but later they came and talk to me and explain to me soo ya..
hahaha
but in the end ii still chose to go cause ii still don understand.
soo ii went to play pool at bukit timah with gabriel jun ming and zara.
sorry dear!! ii did not take 169 with u today=(

ii was suppose to go work today yet in the end ii did not AGAIN! cause ii was lazy and the game ended late also.
after playing ii took 67 from BT and the journey was like 1 and 1/2 hours long lo.
LOL!!
ii sit till my butt damn pain lo
somemore the bus went pass little india and ii was like.. OMG!!
soo ya..
in the end ii reached home at round 9pluslo.
soo tired=(
and ii decided not to do RJ cause ii know it wont make any difference also as ii was late today

but after today must really buck up le if not im not going to pass this semester le lo.
sadded!=(

feeling fading off with time

2008-09-19T22:44:00.006+08:00

anyone who can touch u, can hurt you, or heal you,
anyone who reach you, can love you, or leave you.

sounds true huh?
他曾经真的让我动了心, 但感觉一旦消失就再也找不回了
到最后我选择放弃时, 我只希望时间能够把一切的一切都带走..
we can never be like before anymore
the feelings tad used to bind us together is gone now..

maybe ii changed..
ii donno.
after tad incident on wad happened tad day ii found out tad..
things had changed
feelings has faded

today ii told xj ii gave up on both le
but deep in my heart ii know ii hasn't
people always say *libra* are those who take things on its stride one
but y am ii the different one?
ii can be really stubborn at times esp in relationship
ii can like a guy for 4 yrs
knowing tad there will be no outcome between us..
maybe this is the reason y ii refrain myself from liking anyone bah
how many 4yrs can ii wait for a person?

its easy to say yet hard to be done
cause history is repeating now!
how?!

-if you love me, let me know.If not, please gently let me go.-

pool!! and ii got my pay le!!

2008-09-19T21:39:00.005+08:00

today G106[enterprise]
quite fun..yet ii left cause xj was alone in e library soo ii went off early to meet her.
soo nice of me huh?
wahaha
after tad we went to eat pizza hut as we got our pay le
hahas
after eating we got the sudden urge to play pool soo we called Godric jun and others
but we only played till 630 cause Godric need to meet his friend.
soo ya..
ii took 88 back alone
sadded=(
and today RJ qn was sooo damn difficult!!!
irritating!!

freaked up!!!

2008-09-18T13:49:00.006+08:00

today G102[cognitive] is soooo damn difficult la!
make me soo F-king stress
xj and dom quarreled again.
cause of...
hais..
and im stucked in between.
dom say he will call me tonight cause ii told him ii got things to tell him

after the seperation of our class things change le.
dom attitude change too..[tads wad ii feel]and ii may be just too sensitive
ii hope ii am..
ii missed the days when we talked almost everything and anything.
now..things change

after school we are going to celebrate jared birthday yet alot of them last min not going
ii heard tad geraldine was angry but for me ii will be also de lo
all last min then say.
just like wad my dear say she hate last min things which ii somehow agree now.
hais..

this is wad ii saw from someone's blog
*Hi
have you done computing? (or other module)
can sent ppt and worksheet?
thanks.
and thats all we ever talked about. try checking your msn history alright?
i mean, i dont mind sending, but, this remind me of what jun told me once, people are here just to use you, once they get what they want from you, they'll throw you away.
and its, irritating. try putting yourself in my shoe?
i didnt ask people for PPT or worksheet or anything, unless, i really cant solve it till the end.
but till today(counting from this sem), still none.
not that i'm saying if i ask from you guys then you guys could ask from me, but dont treat me as someone that provides ppt and worksheet answer all the time can?

seriously, i'm not particularly referring to anyone, but if you're guilty of this, and you came across my blog, then, dont ask from me lor, i dont mind not sending it to one person less.*

the first thing ii was like WTF!!
eh its like ii know u are smart but can u please don say such things
affected by people's comment
jun told me the same things also la

but we are all friends la
ii send it when people ask cause ii treat them as friends and ii wont mind sharing it with u guys cause u all are my close friends
yet wad u are trying to say is tad
-hello u are not my friend can u please don take from me?-

and..if u ever see this post
ii just want tell u..
*ii know u are smart but please we are not in the same class anymore. wadever we put in our ppt will never clash with urs so wad are u sooo bothered about?*

this is wad ii feel
sorry if ii offended U but this is wad ii feel and this is my blog!

undecided.

2008-09-17T22:05:00.006+08:00

today went break with my beloved *W25F*
however, ii was really moody soo didn't really talk.
xj asked me wad happened and ii told her.
now even she does not know wad to do and wad advice to give me le=(
-if u like this guy for bout 6 months and during tad period of time he liked u also but nth happen between the two of u.
yet now u found out tad u have no feelings for him le but yet now he tells u tad he likes u and hope to be ur BF..
but.. u like another guy now..
however, u know tad the guy would never like u.
wad should u do?-
*this was the question ii asked her*
she was stunned and don know how to answer me.

after school while waiting for xj ii ask hk this qn.
he said don accept the guy u have no feelings for cause end up u will be the one suffering.
true..but..
ii donno..
somehow at times ii really hoped tad there is someone there for me..
*meaningful words*

*lOst without u*

im sick today=(

2008-09-17T21:14:00.007+08:00

today ii was attacked by the virus "flu"
stupid!then make me cannot concentrate in class today.
today we did on G103[communication]
confusing..
but..ii managed to understand=)
wahaha.
and..norvin showed me a new trick today but nv teach me tad=(
sadded..
but its ok cause he will be teaching me tmr.
hahas.

after school met up with xj and hk to go home today.
ii was supposed to meet QS yet ii did not cause ii was not feeling well.
soo we took 169 and the bus was damn hot!we all sweat in an air-con bus!!
ii think the uncle budget don wan on for us lo=(

and after we alight both of them were sooo nice!
they accompanied me to buy my contact lens and walked really far to find the POSB machine cause ii don have enough $ with me=(
and know wad?ii saw an extra $200bucks in my bank!
my mom said it wasn't her.
soo? GOD pitied me and gave me the $200?
but ii supposed it was some blur sotong who transferred the money to the wrong acc.
hahaha
how ii know?
cause ii done tad before=(
nvm..
as in the end ii got more $ for SHOPPING this week!!
wahaha
soo after withdrawing we went to buy my conact lens and also for a bowl of dessert cause the wheather was really HOT!!
wahaha!
ltr when ii went home ii went to meet dear as ii want to buy the case to put my lens.
in the end..
ii bought a new bag again!!
hahahas.

and im counting down.. another 13 more days!!
happy!!=P
then ii can watch "mirrors" which is M18!
wahahaha!!

jun hao..14/04/04

2008-09-16T20:36:00.010+08:00

*cute rite??*
wahaha

just now went to view his frienster and saw new updated pics which he took it at japan.
but those pics taken was not as cute as these.
haha!
and know wad?
somehow ii miss him..
he's sweet and really sweet to me
but good things always don seems to last for me
ii hope to see him again..
but..
wads the point?
it wouldn't change anything also
im sorry.. really sorry..
nothing can turn back time
no matter how sorry ii was..
everything tad's btw us has ended..
time took everything away including u.
nothing can change anything
its time to move on and ii believed u had moved on already
ii miss u!!

beloved past

2008-09-16T20:25:00.004+08:00

today the class was fun even though quite a lot MIA today.
we did on A112[computing] today
it seems tad ii uds everything but the fact was tad ii don even know if ii uds not lo.
wahaha
ii took the worksheet from dom de
then ii somehow tried to figure out myself.
smart me!
wahahaha=P
however when my team was presenting there was problems lo
sadded=(
ii think another C again le lo
but its ok at least we tried our best le
haha
and today my classmate norvin showed me his lame magic tricks and entertained me
wahaha
it was interesting but he don wan to teach me=(
nvm..ii forced me and he agreed to teach me on thurs!
HAHA

however,today ii was kinda of disappointed cause ii did not see him today.
but nvm..
as wad ii said "我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起..所以我才选择做比情人更好的朋友"
soo ya..
im really trying very hard le
ii believe ii can de=)
雨过了就一定会天晴的!

day without u by my side..

2008-09-15T22:04:00.004+08:00

today was A102[science]. it was quite fun as ii understand the topic and also participated alot in the class.
hahaha..
however a lot of my classmates zao go home lo.
saddened!=(
but its ok cause the majority still chose to stay=)

after school me, xj, jun, godric, jared and geraldine went to play pool at AMK hub.
we played for round an hour then me and xj got to go le
sad!
today ii saw godric was really upset over his own relationship problem and looked soo damn moody.
hais
ii gave him advice yet me myself cant even deal with my own problems..
ii saw J today he's with the girl again
however wad upset me the most was not being able to see 'him' today..
ii was kinda of disappointed but ii hide it as ii don wan anyone esp xj to know.
hais...
just now ii saw something tad makes me feel tad hope arise.
yet ii was disappointed again as ii woke up from my dreams again..
the journey home just now reminded me bout tad day again.
it makes me feel soo down.
ii really like u but u will never know tad cause ii had chose to keep it a secret.
*wOrds left unsaid*
and never be said..
ii miss u!!

new shoes!! =)

2008-09-14T18:38:00.005+08:00

today ii finally bought my shoes le..
im sOooo happy!
hahaha.
tad day ii saw it at TM IP zone but yet they do not have e size ii wanted
saddened!
today ii was thinking of trying my luck to see if they would import new sizes.
and they do!hahaha!
ii bought it at only $19.90
cheap huh?
tad day ii saw it was at 23bucks
then today it was further discount.
hahahaha..
im sOoo happy!!

but yet ii was upset at tad stupid cognitive faci=(
she gave me a C for this week again!!
ii participated alot in class le lo and during presentation ii talk a lot la
yet ii still got a damn C!
the comments she gave was like sooo damn nice, wad ii improve alot saw tad ii tried to bring the group into the discussions and ii talk and asked questions which ii did not do for the previous week.
yet?in the end ii still got a stupid C which was the same as last week then wads the point of me talking and doing sooo much and u giving soo much positive comments when in e end u still chose to give me a C?
ii really don understand wad the F she wants la!
stupid facilitator!!
ARRRGH!!!
ii want back kevin leong!!!
ii hate this stupid irritating faci!
if she's going to give me another C this week ii swear im going to F her up man!
ARRRGH!!!!!!
IRRITATING!!

ii had fallen for u.. wad should ii do now?

2008-09-13T23:57:00.009+08:00

ii donno wad to do now..
im lost now..
u know wad?
ii had fallen for u.
will u ever know?
ii regretted ii really do
我明明就知道我们是不可能的..
ii told myself to give up
ii really tired..my very best to just treat u as a normal friend
but its really difficult..
tad incident should have never happen
then ii wouldn't feel soo pain now.
wad should ii do now?
ii told u ii like someone.
u asked why didn't ii tell him.
how u want me to tell u the person ii mention was u?
let the clock turn, turn back to tad day..
ii really hope tad the moments we had could just stop there..
the journey would never end.
these few days wadever ii do reminds me of u
ii know ii really know..its impossible between us
but ii really donno wad to do
fallen into pieces..
ii like U!!!
will u ever know?
will we ever have an ending?
maybe its time to give up and move on le
ii knew e answer already
y?why am ii clinging onto it when ii already knew the outcome?
或许只是不想放手吧..
但我真的试了
好难真的很难..
perhaps u will never know bah
cause no one will ever know ii like u
this would be kept a secret.. a secret tad no one will ever know
even when ii sleep ii will close my mouth tight soo ii will never sleep talk
maybe im just afraid tad if u know we can never be like wad we are now any more..

some words are just destined to leave it unsaid..
some people are just not meant to be..
fallen out of places..